Choose What Moments to Hold Onto and Which to Release…

dragonflyThis morning, I woke up feeling ugly. Past feelings of me feeling inadequate came splashing into my consiousness. I got up, did some chores, got ready for work and then ran to the market. As I walked around the market I thought, “really Jen?! Why are you feeling ugly? When you’re feeling so healthy?” So then, I took stock of who I am today and compared a rather long list to who I use to be. And I thought “shoot girl, you got it going on!” lol

That little tweak shifted my perception of myself (which raised my vibration) and the day ahead of me. As I was loading my car with groceries, I felt like someone was staring at me. I put in the last bag and then noticed a rather yummy man staring at me. I’m REALLY shy, so I tried not to look back. But my curiosity won! lol I started to giggle and then he started to giggle. And I said, “can I help you?” And he started to laugh with a more hearty laugh and said, “you caught me! I was checking you out! You’re so beautiful!” LOL I totally got the giggles, thanked him and then drove off as quickly as possilbe. lol

I then got on the highway and was beaming with the joy that you receive when someone you find attractive, also finds you attractive. But then bam! Traffic! I found myself squished in between two large trucks, a car ahead of me and a car riding my bumper. I found myself beginning to ride the car’s bumper ahead of me. I felt rude and I felt scared and angry and rushed and unsafe.

And then I took a deep breath and I surrendered. I thought, “raise your vibration and get yourself out of this mess!” So I did! I focused on the deliciousness of being found attractive. That’s all it took! Bam! The truck on my left slowed down and let me in front of him and I sped up to got away from the craziness of that possibly dangerous situation.

I share all of this with you to share with you (again, sorry. lol But I LOVE noticing and speaking about the wonderfulness of our vibration!) so that you can begin to notice that you have innate power!! You also, have the wonderful blessing of choice!! You get to co-create EVERYTHING that is happening to you, and I do mean EVERYTHING!! Yes, it takes diligence and a deep wanting to shift, heal, expand and create whatever it is that you believe will bring you lasting joy…

The photo that I’ve attached is of me, holding a dragonfly. I was having a meltdown. lol My son was trying to take photos of me for my website and the wind kept picking up. I was struggling with perfectionism. When I finally said, “ah f*ck it! Just snap away my love. Whatever photos you take will be fine.” I closed my eyes and began to meditate. I felt the wind, the warm sun and became increasingly aware of the presence and connection of God/the Universe. And I exhaled thinking, ” I surrender”… And when I opened my eyes, there was a dragonfly sitting on me! I picked it up very gently and thanked it for helping me to feel so deeply loved by all that there is…

Moments… They are fleeting. So you get to choose what to hold onto and what to release… I don’t recall the fearful feelings I had boxed in on the highway this morning. I only remember the exhilaration of connecting for a moment with a beautiful man, I remember the wind on the day this photo was taken, I remember deep gratitude for my son taking photos of me for my very own website and I remember the dragonfly. Choose wisely and you will find peace…<3

Your Mission in Life, is To Become YOU Fully Actualized

dharmaI know now that I am living my dharma (true path, the way to cosmic order…my purpose for being here.).

Yes, at times it can be terrifying. Because so many will tell you that you’re going the wrong way. That others will talk about you & that they will leave you. You’ll feel judged, lonely & at times frustrated, angry & bewildered.

However, if you choose to go the way of the warrior, you will find out that you’re stronger & wiser than you could have ever imagined. And piece by piece, your puzzle will come together in a beautiful mosaic of Divine love & grace.

How does one find out what they are here for? By quieting the chatter within your mind, your life & your being. I moved away from the busyness of life. I’ve spent years alone, living as a monk within countless hours of prayer, meditation & pure “BEingness”. Everything else fell to the side & I was left with the immense pain of my humanity.

I’ve chosen to attract experiences to help me rapidly expand my consciousness. These experiences have been humiliating, painful, life-giving, hilarious & profoundly heart & mind opening.

Choosing to live your dharma is not for the weak of heart. But once you go through “the dark night of the soul”, you begin to become more & more enlightened and joy & light-filled. Everything begins to make sense. And you naturally begin to notice the constant dance of synchronicity that helps you leap from one state of being to the next.

There’s a constant flow of lessons. Lesson upon lesson & you must choose to be open to them. There’s been times that I’ve desperately wanted to stop. But once you really begin your journey, there is no turning back.

Your mission in life is to become you, fully actualized. Within this amazing state of being, pain no longer lasts as long. Life tastes sweeter. You’ll laugh with more zest. You’ll naturally begin to heal quickly. You’ll naturally become more abundant. You’ll understand others immediately. And you’ll know a peace, that was unfathomable in the past. And you’ll know God, the purest, highest vibration of love.

The Healing Connection Between Angelic Presence and Synchronicity

anglecloud1 violetrays angelcloud2 Last week on the way to work, I stopped at a stop sign and noticed  a lady looking up at a tree, smiling, speaking (to no one in sight) and with her hands palm to palm in the prayer position. I smiled and thought, “you go sister”! I felt tears welling up in my eyes and I could feel my vibration quickly raising to unconditional love for this woman. If I hadn’t had to go to work, I would have pulled over and joined in with her praising God/the Universe/all that there is. But I slowly drove away, watching her become more and more joyful. She had tears rolling down her cheeks and a huge smile on her face.

As I drove away, I slowly tried to returned my focus towards work mode. I tried to focus on what I needed to do to prepare myself for work. But my focus became ever more attentive to the song that was playing on the radio, “We Belong”, by Pat Benatar. I’m not sure if you know of the song, but she was singing the most gorgeous chorus – “We belong together”.

As I listened to the song, I relished the pulsing vibration of love flowing throughout my body, mind and soul. And I started to giggle. I thought, if anyone else had seen that lady, they would have thought of her as odd. But I so “got” her. She was in such a state of grace, love, and passion. She was so into the mode of love, that she wasn’t aware of anyone else around her that could have been judging her.

This giggle lead to another giggle and memories. When I was little, my little sister (who is 7 years younger than myself), use to ask, “are you here or are you with God?” I had totally forgotten that my lil sis was the only one that noticed that I probably spent at least 50% of my days spent in almost a trance with God. This memory reminded me of another memory. When my son was very little, he too would ask, “are you here? Or are you with God?” These two memories brought such deep, deep joy to me. To know that I have spent a lifetime living a deeply spiritual life. All of this is not new to me. But the speaking and writing about is. Why do I do it? To hopefully help others know the safe haven that is always waiting for us. All of Divinity is waiting for us to just ask for help. We have been given the amazing gift of free choice. And so your angels will not step in, unless you ask them to.

Another amazing gift that we have been given is synchronicity. The more you begin to become mindful of all of the gifts that you are continuously being given, the more you will notice these gifts. When I work with a client, one of the first things that we work on is gratitude and mindfulness.

Here are some examples of synchronicity after I observed the praying lady:

*My “special angel numbers are 4 and 7”. We all have them. And I strongly suggest that you become ever more aware of your numbers. When you see your numbers over and over again, make a mental note of what you are thinking. Your angels are giving you messages through the repetition of seeing your numbers over and over again on license plates, the time, money, etc… After watching the lady, I pulled onto the highway and the first license plate that I noticed had the numbers: 4744!! And right when I noticed those numbers, the DJ on the radio said that it was 7:47am!!

*Throughout the day, I kept seeing beautiful clouds in the shapes of angels!! In fact, I’m constantly seeing angels and  hearts! I know and believe with all of my being that they exist! And my belief has been amplified through the work that I do. As soon as I touch a client’s 3rd eye or heart chakras, many light beings come floating in and begin to help me channel Divine white healing light and intense, unconditional love into a client. When it first began happening, it was a bit overwhelming! But now, I wait for them. Because I know that they are always here!!

We are never alone! And we are deeply loved.

** To begin learning about the numbers that you are constantly seeing, like 11:11, 4;44, 7:11, I highly suggest Googling; Angle numbers. The first listing is a site that I find to be amazing! The author really understands angel messages via numbers. I also, suggest becoming very observant of any animals that keep coming into your consciousness (your totem spirit guides) or in every day life. Like whenever I am upset and angry, deer walk up to me. In Shamanic thinking, the deer represents gentleness. My natural state of being is gentleness. Connecting with deer, reminds me to stay true to myself. And to move away from negative vibrational energy connected to negative thinking patterns and behaviors. So when you see an animal that keeps coming into your daily life, Google: symbolism of… (whatever animal that keeps coming to you.). There is meaning behind everything. Take baby steps to allowing yourself to become ever more present to angelic presence. I promise you, this is the way to joyful living. Namaste beautiful beings.